My “Macaulay Culkin Christmas (in New York) pt1

The story of my Macaulay Culkin Christmas (thus far)! I’ve been updating on Insta and it’s linked meta platforms.

I’d been toying with the idea of getting out of my regular reach for the holidays, but come the Fri 19th Dec when I was putting the mountain of projects on hold, and saying goodbye to friends departing long term. I finally got to 11pm and said “enough”.

Within 48hrs, incl. one final neurodivergent bookclub, and a Christmas themed D&D game with some close friends, I’d recovered enough mental functioning to make a plan. 10 hrs prior to boarding the plane I booked my ticket out and a place to stay when I landed.

I have had an overarching need is to start repair on my brain. 2025 was the hardest year yet. Just when I’d thought that burnout had hit it’s core and I am at my last reserve I found myself in another layer, and in myself another layer of resilience. I could feel my sense of self being stripped away as I lost the more confidence, and watched my skills evaporate as if I was in the final chapters of my own personal Flowers for Algernon.  It made sense to go to my upside-down – where the weather was cold, my expected outcome was not failure, and people called me friend.

The flight out had a hicup but I’m used to that now, and what would have been a problem in the past is now a bit of business.

I landed at Newark Airport NYC and made my way to my excellent tiny hotel Pod51. The rooms are Piet Mondrian themed! I braved the chill and found a pretty jumping Pizza store on 2nd Av blaring Latin American dance music for a few partying folks. Was a good vibe.
I escaped with 2 slices bigger than my head(!), got back into my room by midnight, watched local news and had pizza in bed. SUCCESS!

Since then Jordan at the pizza store will slip me an extra slice of some garlic bread when I go. Great guy.

Mondrian room

Next day I caught up with my friend Dale @ Beyond Sushi for great vegan Sushi lunch, before his expert tour of Midtown & Central Park West. 

I took myself to Macy’s to buy myself a gift, for Christmas Day then Bryant Park skating rink.  Then home to prepare to foil the sticky bandits. The gift is more pants for the cold – is up or in wearing two pairs. I freaked out a little the first time I went to the bathroom and forgot. I thought I’d turned into Ken.

After spending Christmas day wandering through Central Park, finding a diner in the Upper East side NYC and generally being a badly organised tourist (by design!) I was treated to a play Marjorie Prime (by 2nd Stage) by my friend Dale. While we were eating all the Tofu at Ollies Szechwan I happened to glance out the window and it was snowing!? I’ve never seen snow in my 39yrs (and some months*) existence so this was pretty AuDHD brain popping. We had a great conversation on the issues with AI, and a wonderful show in an incredible theatre. Adding a Christmas snowfall definitely lightened the ToDo column of the bucketlist.

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I’m very grateful to Dale who’s been exceptionally patient with my poor planning and touristy excitement as I repair my broken brain on this trip. Also he keeps me eating well – difficult to do solo when burnt out.

AI and ownership

I recently came across a social media post commenting on an AI picture of a group of smiling people largely women. If was quite innocuous as an image but the ire of one commenter was drawn from the usual place – AI is trained on real images without concent

A little like:

accountxyz: hope the people you all use in prompts start suing the heck out of all of you

Okay. Most images are built from AI trained on massive banks of images largely unattributed, making that some class action.

Better though (if we want to get social warrior – which I’m down for) how about some lawsuits happening on predatory media, fashion and entertainment industry bodies, organisations and individuals, that have destroyed young women’s lives and careers for profit; for that matter what about accountability by the individuals that have openly joked about their dehumanising and abuse of women. Let’s not leave men out – the hazing and humiliation of young men in those industries is also a known blight that, by silence, we are complicit.

Whilst that may be somewhat off topic, a person’s right to own their own identity, is heavily impacted by data protection and it’s regulation in the current era. Legislation tends to move at a glacial pace compared to digital technology. However, legislation has been uncaristeristically nimble, as seen in the EU data reforms, and in business with Cloudflare and others moving to take control of bot crawling. The use of AI in increasing the speed and volume of trials for combating COVID, pushed reforms to bringing pharmaceuticals to market, at a rate that was previously implausable.

On a different tactic … how about the artists that have been plagiarised – but not compensated – for models being trained on their work?

The digital era has invented some models for mass distribution & monetisation that could be used in the training up and prompting of outputs for AI. The Spotify model is probably the most familiar example. These models arose in the digital frontier, in a time where torrenting ruled, and artists control of their IP was threatened. It’s been said that this led to better control for the studios than the artists. From the Wild West of torrent downloads, more was gained technologically than was redressed ethically. Better ethical distribution of the equity is always a goal.

Philanthropically there is potential in a model where the incredible profit margins from AI start-ups and established tech giants are “encouraged” to be farmed back into art and social programs. NGOs, NFPs, Government and community led organisations are better positioned to lead the redress societal imbalance, and best avoid the conflict of interest  in distribution of that gain. It isn’t a direct compensation for artist IP, rather it’s a longer term sector and societal solution, which works more in terms of redistribution of individual wealth gained from the common wealth.

That being said, there are options other than “Ban the AI”. Artificial Intelligence is past cancel culture. What that means is we need to ask ourselves as individuals, communities and societally, what are the potential risks, what are the possible mitigations of those risks and what are the opportunities – and for whom? This is a long game.  If we move together as a society, bottom to top, shoulder to shoulder, the better our future becomes. The biggest opportunity is for building our ethics into our solutions.  And now is precisely that time.